what I have to say

mizzunderstood — 2008-10-16T18:22:00Z

What are you waiting for? Life's right outside your window. Go look. It's the stars, the trees, the beaches, the sky. I'm sitting here, pen to paper, fingers to keys, hoping that what I say may change your life. But who am I to say something like that? I am a daydreamer. I am a girlfriend. I am an old friend. I am a cousin. I am a lover. I am a niece. I am a list maker. I used to be who you made me to be... But not anymore. Wake up everyday. And just breathe. I want to meet EVERYONE. And I'll love you all just the same. I want to experience life to the fullest. YOU should do the same. "WHY do people think buttons are cute?" Maybe we're just crazy, but I want to SAVE THE WORLD. And after that, I'll go dancing. Show me who YOU REALLY ARE. Everything. Your secrets, your passions, your affairs, your heartbreaks. And I'll still love you. "Hi, this is me. Nice to meet you." Let's have a glass of wine and sleep under the stars. And I'll say we're best friends and never forget you. I'll give you pieces of my heart when no one else is willing to. I'll raise money to get to SPAIN if I have to. And we do this for you, because we love you. And everyone deserves to be happy. No more tears. No more sighs. I make today, tomorrow, and next year EVERYTHING it can be. So smile, because you're talking to me. For every 8 smokers who die from tobacco, 1 nonsmoker dies from secondhand smoke. In this life, I've learned that there is nothing you can do to prevent heartbreak. That word, heartbreak, was italicized in sadness and underlined in pain. Have you ever stood on top of a building and looked out over the city? That's the only place in the world I feel most alive, because all it takes is two little steps and you're gone. So go ahead, JUMP. No one's stopping you. About 30,000 people die by suicide every year. Why am I here? What is my purpose? Where does the hour go in daylight savings? Why don't penguins have knees? Why does the sky never seem gray when you're happy? Why is it best to kiss in the rain? Why does the moon follow me home? How could I get a cold just by taking a bath? Why is the alphabet in that order? Where does the moon go? Why does the sun set? Why are stars so small? Why is the world not getting smaller, but that there is less in it? We NEED to save this world. 37 million Americans live in poverty. You're not alone on this planet. Go out and actually DO something. Make a difference. ONE click can make a difference. Now, that's a start. Come on, we all need a little change. Some times it's good to make someone else smile. There's this thing called friendship. You must pick and choose carefully, or else there will be no more angels in Heaven. "Death needs time for what it kills to grow in." Can you feel it? It's in the air. Its presence is everywhere. It's called love. It's painted in your walls, weaved into your scarves, boiled into your cups of coffee, noted in your music. It's even on your skin. Can you feel it now? "So let my lack of a voice be heard." Go love more, see more, breathe more. Just BE more. Hurry, go explore the world while you still have time. You waste away on drugs and cigarettes while the earth screams for your attention.

"And so the earth died screaming."

I believe that everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it.

I don't want to merely tell you I love you, I want to show you with my life. I simply aspire to be compassionate, loving, true, genuine, humble, accepting, honest, encouraging, kind... a servant, a friend, and a mentor. Daily. I have big dreams, and I have big things trying to hold me back. But, I have something even bigger that's going to push me ahead. Not for myself, not for the music, not for eyes, not for glory, not for popularity, and not for fame. But for love, for change, for hope, and for people. Living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see. It's getting hard to be someone but it all works out, it doesn't matter much to me.

I define myself.
I mean, yeah I've got some pros and cons, but nobody's perfect. I've seen and been through things that would get most people down. But I've decided to make the best out of things and move on. No point in holding grudges, no point in fighting. I've got realistic aspirations that I hold myself to. From now on whatever I say I'm going to do, I'll do it. I'm tired of disappointing people, and letting them down. This is my new start. A start to be a better person, and a good friend. I can be very quiet. Even though I'm quiet, everything I say has meaning. I don't believe in lying, or dishonesty. I don't believe in second chances, only new beginnings. I don't believe in regrets because they're just a false hope to change the past, and that's just impossible. I don't believe in doing drugs, it is just a temporary fix to get out of reality, and it never lasts. Trust me, I should know. I don't believe that there is any reason for violence. No excuses, nothing. Honestly, if you know me all and all, I'm the most calm person you'll know and I can also be the most upbeat person you know. And to be honest, I wish there was more people like me. I wish I could change the world, but you can't do that with a pair of scissors and hairspray.

I have dreams and long to do good things for people, for hope, for love and for change. I live by faith and do my very best to walk in patience. I prefer to watch and listen than be the center of attention. I'm simple and cordial. I'm open-minded and free. I do not believe in violence, of any form. I've grown to be appreciative of every moment and experience. I value communication and honesty. I learn as I grow, I grow as I learn. I'm shining and cruising through life. I live for beautiful days and the people that stay true. I'm a girl of lasting impressions, lessons learned, and promises kept. I refuse to ever believe that I'm incapable of the dreams I have. Ambitious until the day I rest six feet under.

I don't need to impress anybody. I'm as pure as they get. Good things happen for a reason. I'll keep my little sleepyhead snores in sync with your heartbeat. Life doesn't need to be justified or judged. We are not good or bad or right or wrong; we are just the way we are. I'm not a creature from another world, I live in the same world as you and I too, am a human being. I'm Hispanic; and I'm proud of what I am. I'm at 5'2" 1/4" and will remain this way until I'm long gone from this green Earth. Originated from the 909, cali - but I long to live somewhere amazing. A hopeless romantic who just wants to be loved and appreciated and a hardcore daydreamer who at times lives in the clouds.

Curiosity never leaves my side. I see beauty for what it is with no barriers, borders, or boundaries. I suffered from phobia of Barbies. I'm not the most gorgeous girl or the most talkative person you'll meet off first hand, unless I find something in you that I really like. So, please, give me time if you happen to be one of the people that I don't really talk to much at first. I am nice the majority of the time; and i can be the kindest person you'll ever met but just don't hurt me, break my heart, or back stab me or you will regret it.

I think a lot, and I spend the majority of my time loving. I'm smart. You probably won't understand half of the things I say and they most likely won't make any sense. I believe war is stupid, certain religions are stupid, and a lot of people in the world today are stupid, I am very sorry if you are offended. I eat my food too slow sometimes and I tend to always bite my straws, that's how you'll always know which drink is mine. I cannot say that I'm normal because I'm far from that, actually, I am the most unique person you'll probably ever meet (: , but if I was normal, I can promise you that it would be extremely boring and you wouldn't like it.

In a few words, I am usually a weird, crazy, hyper and you have no idea how much I enjoy being the way I am. I know exactly what I'm thinking or feeling, and you don't, tend to not have any control of my facial expressions- I have a strong and complicated personality; sometimes I don't know what I think, sometimes I don't know what I want, but that still doesn't mean that you do. I don't chose sides, I'm really picky with things from something as small as which sanrio pencil. But I like to experiment trying other things too, except food. I may be what you always wanted, I may not be what you expected, but I am who I am, and I like it just fine that way. I hope you will too. People can't change me. They never have been able to and never will be able to. Most of you don't like to be alone, that's why you need to be surrounded by people who really care about you and viceversa, the people who you really trust, the ones who are there when you need them the most, and the ones who don't believe rumors and just believe in what you really are, in some few words that's my meaning of friends, I really love my friends more than anything, and they are the most amazing people I ever met. Although it is only a few people, they are all I need in life. Currently there's some people that don't like me or actually hate and talk shit like they've known me for a long time and they don't even know the half of me, but that only shows how immature and pathetic you are. I'd rather be hated for who I really am, then be loved for what I'm not. Deal with it. If you're brave enough to face me, then you can keep me in your pocket.

I don't like conforming to what people say I should be. I feel like it's time to break the mold of what the world says I should look like and who I should be. I am my own female. I love setting my own standards and then striving to go above and beyond. I feel like true beauty lies on the inside and that my outward appearance is a reflection of who I am on the inside. I can't wait to start attending a university, and to be honest, once I do, I'll love school. I'm thinking of being a criminal investigator. It'll be tough and a lot of hard work, but it'll be so worth it. Music is my passion as well as my life, and worship is my heart. Sometimes it's hard to just sit back and let God write your story, but I've learned that his plan is so much bigger and better than my own. God has taken me through some hard times lately, teaching me about trust and patience, learning to just wait on God is not always easy but I know it'll all be worth it in the end. I love God with all my heart and love to just worship Him although I do not attend church like I used to. But I'm so in awe of all the things He has done in my life.

Every single person has their individual flaws, but that is what makes us all human. I like to find the beauty in people that goes past all their imperfections. I believe everyone in this world deserves a second chance. I enjoy the simple pleasures in life, from the clouds in the sky and the sun shining through them to the little ladybugs in the grass. Life is the most wonderful and precious gift you'll ever be given. Do not waste it, but instead spend it wisely. Cherish everyday of it. Take on challenges, make mistakes, follow a new path, or go astray. The ordinary is extraordinary. Life is a surprise, live it up.<3

I'm a dreamer.
I wish the world was not so uptight. I wish people would understand that drugs are the most stupidest thing there is in life, that it is just a temporary thing that makes you happy, and it is not forever. I wish everyone could find happiness. I wish there was no more depression. I wish everyone would be more forgiving. I wish suicide wasn't an option. I wish violence was extinct. I wish everybody could be optimistic. I wish a lot of things. But, I don't wish to be anyone different.

I Have Come To Realize That People Are The Worst Thing Out There, They Are Like A Disease Or A Parasite That Will Attach It's Self To You And Ruin You From The Inside Out, And They'll Bring You Down If You Don't Discover Who Your Real Friends Are. -ian c.

We could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors.... but they all have to learn to live in the same box.

The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open. and i was completely cut open.

I want out of the labels. I don't want my whole life crammed into a single word. A story. I want to find something else, unknowable, some place to be that's not on the map. A real adventure. A mystery. A blank. Unknown. Undefined.

I truly believe that everything in life happens for a reason, and the you just have to take in the bad with the good. God has a plan for me, and I plan on to live it happy. I think that the bad things that happen in life are just learning experiences. I also believe that there is always going to be a happy ending. And if you are not happy then it is not the end. Just wait it will come to you sooner or later.

I don't judge people just by their looks. How can you know everything about a person just from a picture. sure a picture is worth a thousand words, sometimes even a story. but stories can sometimes be fiction. and appearances can sometimes be just that. i think you should get to know someone before you shut them out and stuff them into one of your psychopathic stereotypes. You also cant judge someone by merely their likes and dislikes. not everybody likes what you like and hates what you do gosh have an open mind. People should not be crammed up in just a single word. I have gotten so much shit over the years, and i plan on making those people see that I am definitely not what they have expected me to be, and now they mean nothing to me, and eventually they will mean nothing to everybody else, because that is all they'll be nothing. I am sick of people putting me down and expecting me to stay down.

It is a hard thing for someone to do when you have been negative all of your life, I dream big after i finish high school. I'll go to a criminal justice university. I want to have an amazing career, and make more money in a week than your doctor makes in a month, and more than anything i want to be able to go to my high school reunion and say that i am the most successful person of my graduating class, and of course you there with no ambitions and self pity, may think that that is a lot to strive for but trust me I will do it! I have been called every name you can think of. I have been used and stabbed in the back more times than i have been appreciated, but none of that is going to stop me.

I'm living proof. I've had a great run & if I passed now I'm glad
I met the people I did & I thank God for everything he has blessed me with. I believe in the light of shining stars, I believe in the sun&the moon, I believe in the flash of lightning, I believe in the night-bird's croon. I believe in the faith of the flowers, I believe in the rock&sod, I believe in all of these appeareth clear the handiwork of God.

I grew up around cartoons. I was exposed too much to these funny, entertaining, yet unrealistic short classics in which every action taken by one of the characters was followed by a tune or sound effect that would describe the mood of the character. My life was influenced and had since revolved around such ideas. It was many years until I could experience the true world and what I would now consider boringness. The world is much more static than the cartoon world, never changing, following a slow theme and in the trend of a mega-evolution. I think such cartoons and TV shows have influenced the minds of young, growing children such as who I was to think of life as exciting and unrealistic. I guess this would be one of the reasons that I am now so reserved. You do not know anything about life and how it can truly be until you have experienced things the way I have.

Take a look at me and you will see nothing but things that might be lies. But talk to me, really get into deep conversation and you will see an old soul trapped in a young body. I have the mentality of someone who has experienced years beyond years of life. I'm so much of a compassionate and affectionate person that it makes me sick. I care way too much.

Life is one big mystery, and the glory about it is that every day, month, and year you learn one more clue about it, and the best part, you can never figure it out. I live for the moments I never forget and the people I will always remember. Happiness comes in too many ways to describe it. Without optimism I don't know how anyone can enjoy life. No matter how bad the situation is, there is always a positive way to look at it, keeping your head up is the hardest part. God, family, and friends are the three things that keep me going, and meeting new friends is like getting a present(: You are never going to make everyone happy, so I focus on the ones that matter the most to me. I have the biggest dreams and I'm shooting for the stars, so don't even bother getting in my way(: There is never a point to look back on your past except to reflect on memories and lessons learned, besides that, keep looking forward. I'm excited to see where life takes me, but I can wait, living the right now is satisfying. Life is one beautiful complicated messs(:

What if somewhere, some time, in the distant future, in another planet, Biology evolved in a completely different way than ours. Every species has four of the same chromosome instead of our two. This decreases the chance of getting a genetic disease or disorder by half. However, this biology is conservative due to the lack of change: if we were to touch that planet, it would immediately die of smallpox or the like. Back to our society: do we really want to heal? or to evolve? Think about it.

I am the nicest person you will ever meet and you can guarantee that. I do anything for anyone. Even people who have fucked me over really bad. That is just the type of person I am. Honestly, I hate it. But I can't help it. I have been taken for granted by people who I really truly thought loved me and hey, it fucking sucks. But I would still be there for them 100%. No matter what. I hate that I get taken advantage of. I hate that I get used. I guess I am too nice. But, it is just in my nature. I will have nothing at all, and still try and give. I go out of my way and bend backwards for a lot of people. It's true when they say that good guys finish last. Because they always do. If you were to cut open my heart, you would find a lot of pain and hurt from all of the betrayal. But I'm still surprisingly living.

You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. Love is a powerful word and feeling, and most people mistake it. I have finally found true love, and I am extremely shocked of what God gave me, i never knew i would have it in such a young age, but I truly deserve it(: Love is something so powerful its amazing, you would search to the furthest reaches of the Universe and never find anything more beautiful.

Oh honey. When someone asks me what I see in him, I say, "Everything you don't." Kisses, hugs, cuddling, blankets, and ribbons keep this love warm and safe. It's an "everyday" love, a "wake you up in the morning" love, a "never leave you" kind of love. I'm always wanting you. To see you, to breathe you in. You're like honey to the taste and happiness to the soul. Stay with me, baby. Someday, I'll scream to the world how much I love you and all they'd do is stare at me in disbelief. It's a shame civilization doesn't want to believe in love. We are the pure example of love. It's a "tragedy" love. Not like Romeo and Juliet, but like a boy and a girl who fell in love, but live in different worlds. There's a name, signed in permanent ink on the dotted line on my heart. The ink bleeds through and travels in my bloodstream. You're the melody my body swings to, you're the rhythm my body dances to. But most of all, you're the song that my life moves on with. You grew on me and you'll forever be the boy that picked my heart up off the floor and put it back together. Patiently, and piece by piece, you mended a once broken heart. I love you, Eddie. More than you'll ever believe.

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